Jul 11, 2011
just a rainy day
I wish I had something exciting to write today but I fear I do not. It's a rainy day actually, and the creative mood has struck, I'm not sure which craving overbears the other the one to paint or the one to write, so for now I will write this and then if inspiration hits I will paint too :) Stampede yesterday was a blast, but between too much coffee and lack of sleep, i just couldn't sleep last night and thus we have an insanely tired and sick me today. oh well. maybe I'll do another post later.
Jul 9, 2011
An early morning thought process.
It`s easy for me to reflect upon everything on mornings like this. The early ones when everything is still quiet and everyone is still asleep. Not that I've gotten up for shits and giggles, just the couch was killing me, and I had to many pressing thoughts on my mind. C'ést la vie.
But it really is peaceful. I mean I can hear the traffic just getting going for the day, the fridge running, the wind blowing through the patio door that had to be left opened all night. And it's days like today that I sigh in relief but I realize I'm not just surviving another day, I'm living another day, I'm actually making in this big world. How many people I would like to go and find on mornings like this and after a solid punch to the gut (or face) look them square in the face and say simply I told you so, then in typical Shannon fashion stick out my tongue (because it's real mature and I'm awesome cool like that)
But seriously how many times in my life have people told me I won't make it, I won't become anything or make anything of myself, I'm a loser, I'm a nothing. But guess what! I have made it, each and every day through hell and high waters, I've become stronger, prouder, more independent, and wiser and kinder and I love with a full heart. I've become a mother and daughter to a mother I never knew, I'm a girlfriend and a best friend, a support system for other people. Sometimes I'm the stars in someones eyes and sometimes I'm someone else's foundations but I have mde myself into a person I'm proud to be. I'm not a loser today I'm a winner. I look at where I live and with who I live with and what I've been blessed to have in my life, a good man, a beautiful little girl, supportive family on both sides, friends that I love and I know that return the sentiment. and I am most certainly not a nothing. I making my impact, I'm leaving my mark, and I am making a difference, maybe just one person at time, maybe only even a dent in a dent but its happening every day I live. I used to think impacts had to be huge but I've learned that simply telling someone you care about them changes something for them, in turn makes an impact. My impacts on this world are small, but god damn they are mine. so to everyone who said I couldn't, I did, and to everyone who told me I wouldn't, i am. and to all those that failed to believe in me, fuck you.
In retrospect I have to think, the one person who who i have negative feelings about is the one person who told me i could, who told me i was and am and are and can be and will be. My dad always told me I could do anything, be anything, see anything, have, want, and love anything. Well dad thank you. I am I am doing and seeing and being all there is.
But it really is peaceful. I mean I can hear the traffic just getting going for the day, the fridge running, the wind blowing through the patio door that had to be left opened all night. And it's days like today that I sigh in relief but I realize I'm not just surviving another day, I'm living another day, I'm actually making in this big world. How many people I would like to go and find on mornings like this and after a solid punch to the gut (or face) look them square in the face and say simply I told you so, then in typical Shannon fashion stick out my tongue (because it's real mature and I'm awesome cool like that)
But seriously how many times in my life have people told me I won't make it, I won't become anything or make anything of myself, I'm a loser, I'm a nothing. But guess what! I have made it, each and every day through hell and high waters, I've become stronger, prouder, more independent, and wiser and kinder and I love with a full heart. I've become a mother and daughter to a mother I never knew, I'm a girlfriend and a best friend, a support system for other people. Sometimes I'm the stars in someones eyes and sometimes I'm someone else's foundations but I have mde myself into a person I'm proud to be. I'm not a loser today I'm a winner. I look at where I live and with who I live with and what I've been blessed to have in my life, a good man, a beautiful little girl, supportive family on both sides, friends that I love and I know that return the sentiment. and I am most certainly not a nothing. I making my impact, I'm leaving my mark, and I am making a difference, maybe just one person at time, maybe only even a dent in a dent but its happening every day I live. I used to think impacts had to be huge but I've learned that simply telling someone you care about them changes something for them, in turn makes an impact. My impacts on this world are small, but god damn they are mine. so to everyone who said I couldn't, I did, and to everyone who told me I wouldn't, i am. and to all those that failed to believe in me, fuck you.
In retrospect I have to think, the one person who who i have negative feelings about is the one person who told me i could, who told me i was and am and are and can be and will be. My dad always told me I could do anything, be anything, see anything, have, want, and love anything. Well dad thank you. I am I am doing and seeing and being all there is.
Jul 6, 2011
If I Blogged every time....
I was irritated there would be a great many rants on here, and If I had a dollar for every time I got irritated I would be a fucking millionaire. But I'm not and I don't...except for tonight.
Maybe its the almost 30 degree weather outside, or the almost 40 degree weather inside, or the kids outside that run around screaming and yelling, without parental supervision, and in clear disregard of a notice handed out to all residents of the West winds Village. Or it could be the movie that I really dislike that we have already seen, or maybe just maybe it's my total and utter disgust for humanity at this very moment.
It's ironic before I get into what's irritating me, I should mention that what has happened Matt and his dad predicted only a few hours ago and I shook it off, no way would that happen...and it has.
The royal couple is in Calgary this weekend for the stampede, and the city of Calgary was giving away free wristbands to see them. Did you notice the word in bold?? No?!? okay I will emphasize it some more for you FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE.
Okay we all got that right?? no need to emphasize anymore?? Okay good! Here is now the sick and twisted part, people went and got these FREE bands and are now selling them online for as low as 75$ per band and some I've seen as high as $150 per band. Where is the common sense and sense of ...............anything!!! Seriously this is ridiculous. This is a piss off, an outrage!! Don't believe me??? go to Kijiji and go to Calgary and then go to the tickets section under buy and sell and check it out!!
On a brighter note enough is enough and kids playing street hockey in a parking lot screaming like idiots at 9:30 at night is stupid I can deal with kids screaming all day but at night too...nuuuu thank you. enough is enough and I've made a call to report that idiocy.
Maybe its the almost 30 degree weather outside, or the almost 40 degree weather inside, or the kids outside that run around screaming and yelling, without parental supervision, and in clear disregard of a notice handed out to all residents of the West winds Village. Or it could be the movie that I really dislike that we have already seen, or maybe just maybe it's my total and utter disgust for humanity at this very moment.
It's ironic before I get into what's irritating me, I should mention that what has happened Matt and his dad predicted only a few hours ago and I shook it off, no way would that happen...and it has.
The royal couple is in Calgary this weekend for the stampede, and the city of Calgary was giving away free wristbands to see them. Did you notice the word in bold?? No?!? okay I will emphasize it some more for you FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE.
Okay we all got that right?? no need to emphasize anymore?? Okay good! Here is now the sick and twisted part, people went and got these FREE bands and are now selling them online for as low as 75$ per band and some I've seen as high as $150 per band. Where is the common sense and sense of ...............anything!!! Seriously this is ridiculous. This is a piss off, an outrage!! Don't believe me??? go to Kijiji and go to Calgary and then go to the tickets section under buy and sell and check it out!!
On a brighter note enough is enough and kids playing street hockey in a parking lot screaming like idiots at 9:30 at night is stupid I can deal with kids screaming all day but at night too...nuuuu thank you. enough is enough and I've made a call to report that idiocy.
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